Wednesday, August 12, 2009
somewhere along the road,
i changed.
realized the despair and pain,
the lies that shrouds our lives.
got pessimistic,
started to realise the falsities that people portray.
how so many people in my life are simply wearing masks of their own,
a smiling face now,
contorts into a perverse smile like Jigsaw.
How so many people wave a hand at you now,
and wave a dagger at your back later.
how sickening this world is.
but i have comfort in knowing that there are real friends,
ones who i can trust,
even if it may not last.
with this friends i may be able to survive the craziness of this world,
the plotting, scheming of those who claim to be friends,
those who ignore you now and try to be cozy later when it affects their self-interest.
how many true friends can we find in this world?
how many aren't simply pretending for their own self benefit?
how many aren't simply socializing with you because there is a need to?
how many aren't simply acting out their friendliness, and is all ready to stab you in the back when they have to?
it disgusts me when i think of it.
i wish those who would fake through their lives bon voyage,
for their lives would end up in despair and self-carnage.
I am enlightened, even by a little bit,
the world,
is a blob of lies and deceit,
unruly and ready to kill all who is not prepared for it.
ready to affect them with a chronic poison,
one that won't kill them instantly,
but slowly drive them to their end.
slowly, slowly,
it will come.
and i shall be prepared for it.
7:32 PM
