feel so helpless,
feel so weak.
feel so insignificant,
someone no one needs.
feel like dying,
feel like crying,
feel like relishing my life,
so that i can escape this.
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For whose sake am i living for?
for my friends?
for my family?
oh.
right.
for myself.
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DunkIt@Chingay'09!
jaywalking in front of the police is fun. (:
running in the rain is cool.
rain is not fun.
especially if you have no wet weather plan other than "run for shelter."
=|
angry kid is angry.
RAGEMORE.
going into details warrants nothing but making me tired.
thus.
576!
this year economy bad...plus many dear ones have left the world =(
chu er today!
my bro invited his underling's lion dance troupe to his house o.O
so cool to have one or two of those things dancing in your house xD
sheer win.
this dream is ending soon.
but will a miracle happen? =(
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RAHH BLISTERS AGAIN.
but i like to play bball =O
576!
this year economy bad...plus many dear ones have left the world =(
chu er today!
my bro invited his underling's lion dance troupe to his house o.O
so cool to have one or two of those things dancing in your house xD
sheer win.
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more blisters RAHHHHHH =((
just found a cosplay site in japan..the photographers upload really great cosplay pics!
mpZero Blog
anyway i finally got past the "prologue phase" of fortune arterial!
here we see 3 of the 5 heroines in the game..
harem indeed.
the story's proving to be quite good and i find myself laughing at the randomness of the student council president (if only our school's president was HALF as interesting and effective and popular.)
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damn, got blisters on my feet just after 1 hour of bball downstairs..
swear i'll wear shoes instead of slippers to bball next time..
i got enough for my electric violin! yay!
went to grandma's house for reunion dinner..
i think ziheng is the only young relative i actually get along with..
the rest just gets on my nerves -.-
his sis is kinda cute too! xD
took family photos!
Big Family photo!
all the grandsons..basically all my cousins =D
me my dad my mum and grandma xD
the only thing that pulls me through the years are my family i realised.
happy chinese new year everyone =)
with the looming economic slump and recession imminent, we have tons of reasons to be happy for.
of course, not to mention our favorite tests and exams! =D
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Photo from sankaku complex:
"okay"
"will you touch it?"
"okay"
"thanks"
japanese tv shows are teaching kids all the wrong stuff..zomgggg
Just watched College the movie!
damn. if only all universities were like that.
they made it seem as if u go to school just for all the booze and the parties o.O
probably the best thing in the world. (other than japanese high schools i guess =p)
"you are just a bunch of high school kids!"
i rather stay that way =)
i dont wanna grow up and face this cruel society =(
practical, selfish, greedy, heartless.
cruelty at its best.
and it swallows all that enters >.<
but theres no escaping that..
ah the melancholy.
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I don't know what to make of my life.
i think i am an epic failure.
i can talk to people, persuade, counsel,
and encourage.
yet i am defeated by myself.
smiling, giggling,
hiding everything in my heart.
so that no one would know of my pain.
or my inner turmoil.
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radio rip of Strength by abingdon boys school is out in tokyotosho
like the song but i still prefer resonance by TM.R himself..this song's climax isnt that great but it could have cut it for the OP instead of Paper Moon by february6.
oh well.
waiting to feast my hands on gundam 00 2nd season tmr /drool.
Also the vids of May'n at AFA'08 (anime festival asia 2008 @ suntec city)
Diamond Crevasse.
What 'bout my star.
Northern Cross.
WHY DID I NOT GO AFA WHY DID I NOT GO AFA WHY DID I NOT GO AFA.
ROAR.
doubt she'll be coming for this year's AFA =((
her songs rock.
wonder if they can try inviting stereopony over this year.. lol
or mizuki nana / hirano aya =D
found this MAD of Lion, which is quite nice..
japanese are really good at making MADs..as opposed to AMVs from other countries.
i hate myself.
laugh more.
"we will ensure this is your most memorable CNY celebrations!"
yea it's definitely memorable..
who else gives you 1hr 40mins to walk around the cny stalls covering the land mass of around 1 olympic sized swimming pool?
ended up rotting around anyway =.=
the concert/performance was quite okay, with the PSG president being the vip. super o.O(we were speculating if he was some CEO of some secret organisation..think
gintama)
lao yu sheng! =D
we initiated the lao yu sheng by shouting first! wahahaha
the pictures say it all. XD
we fed half the plate of yu sheng to the table! =D how nice we are eh!
all the food cleared from the table account for a substantial portion of the yusheng given x.x
our class has fell into the dumps.
oh well..in with the new year and new class o.O
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dont feel like wasting 10dollars on trimming my hair so i d.i.y cut my own hair o.O
at least its not that thick now..
i have a bad feeling that the basin will be clogged.. lol
the english diagnostic exercise was crap.
mcq testing on our mastery of the english language plus anagrams / word wheels / rephrased proverbs (some of the rephrased words i dont even understand wtf) =.=
then after that were the usual lectures..
then we decided to be extra and turn up for the bio lecture despite the obvious fact that we do not take bio..
as it turns out they were going to have an amazing race (class based)..so since our class have 4 people, as opposed to 30 ppl per class, we decided to give up after wasting 20mins of our lives and went on to play basketball for like 2 hours ..
playing bball everyday.. cos it just feels so boring at home x.x
totally forgot that theres violin makeup lessons today..but luckily i left at 4.40+ and reached the place just in time phew.
asked teacher if i could play the electric violin and he said i could! =D
weeeeee .. now to find one to buy..
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School rules are the worst invention in the world,
especially when the rules arent to your liking.
but what can we do?
we can only submit and comply.
viva la revolution?
nowadays people only want to viva la vida and live their lives. >.>
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Playing Fortune Arterial now.. visual novel =DD
anime + game = visual novel.
quite fun for now..but its in jap so i take like 5+secs to read each line >.<
screenshot of the title screen lol
harems ftw? lol
u have the moe, the tsundere, the loli, the bishoujos..what more can u want. xD
Boring school life is boring. -.-
lectures are like totally like the much hated episode recaps in anime T_T
people hate them but they always insist on having them..(think naruto.)
=.=
2 things to note about JC:
1. Fierce DM is fierce.
2. JC canteen food is gg. =/
so we must act guai and sit when they say sit. =(
and i'd prefer highschool canteen over jc canteen anyday.
best part about jc?
old classmates and basketball =D
tmr is a good day.
go school at 9 -> go home at 11. =)
The Armed Forces sent me a mail..
scholarship for poly/ite -.-
totally no link =_=
rawr.
time to start doing paper 1/2 of 2007nypaper and paper 2 of 2008's. zzz
宿題をやりたくない。T_T
面倒臭いし。
いつもべっトに眠ればいい。><
KI IS HARD.
the freaking selection test asked "Identify and evaluate the claims on the modes of knowledge between the East and the West." This was okay.
then.."Which mode of knowledge do you think is the best for surviving in today's world?" zzz
hopefully i can get it.. T_T
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Obama is taking the presidential seat today at 11pm! woohoo.
shall watch the inauguration speech and see if he can inspire me.
YES. WE. CAN.
bought book 4-8 of kurokami, vol 1 of kuroshitsuji and for the free book i got 断罪者 vol. 1, which the person introduced as "quite nice as well"..
wanted gantz..but apparently due to its violent content its availability is severely limited and they only got vol 22 and 23..i want vol 1. =(
weird thing is that 断罪者 had 2 warning of “十八禁” and "青少年不宜” but the auntie introduced it to me nevertheless... this is a bad thing and a good thing. =/
hope it'll make for good reads =D
yuna ito's singing the new ED for gundam 00 2nd season!
EDIT:Bleh Sunrise removed the ED! =(
Trust You - Yuna Ito!
her songs always rocked (well its ballad..but its not the point)
=D
Stereo Pony's Namida no Mukou, the 2nd OP for gundam 00 s2, has their pv released! =DD
STEREO PONY ROCKS =D
hitohira no hanabira is still nicer tho imo
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Gintama is still funny despite the major shift from more comedy to more action..which i really don't mind! xD
did anyone see jacky chan!?! LOL
Vegeta's Scouter!!! xD
ITS OVER 9000!!!!!
FREEZA VS HIJIKATA LOL
their references rock! xD
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on the other hand.....i have not even touched maths so i am screwed =/
my whole body freaking aches >.>
a result of suddenly exercising after not doing any rigorous activity for the past 3 months -.-
DunkIt@Chingay Training day was a hard day ~
more so because of the basketball games in between and after x.x
thank god dhs isnt as big as hci lol
or the sheer moving around would have been disastrous. >.>
oh god i got to cut my hair today..
or i'll get detected by the discipline gang. >.<
and i'll go get my kurokami book 4-9 as well as either 1 book of gantz or zombie loan =D
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I don't know how chinese subbers can manage to sub at 2.5x the speed of english subbers o.O
chinese are more efficient in chinese? o.O
winter season is kinda dry..but i guess the hot shows from last season can push me on into spring! =D
and Kuro Kami Ep 2~
they juxtaposed the death of mei-chan..and that means steiner/excel will show up in different ways =O
and WHY IS KEITA A EMO KID NOW INSTEAD OF THE COOL PUNK HE WAS!?!?!
rawr...
but since the story is different, it at least interests me to watch on =x
lets see how it goes.
EDIT: Whats with the sudden "KURO!" and synchronising like nobody's business?!?! x.x
Aqua Timez's new single: Velonica is out! =D
A-side: Velonica
B-side:Kaori, Kanade Ai
album art!
velonica is nice and has those fast rapping parts as usual,
but i prefer natsu no kakera more to this..
though aqua timez's lyrics always have a lot of meaning behind them..
thats why i like em! =D
alones is still one of the best from them thus far tho
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School (unofficial) starts next monday 11am! hahahha
poor smtp peeps and ppl from class 401 402 403 404 414 from ny would have to come at 7.45 for that crappy talk..rofl
guess i'll go collect my results slip on monday then..
i am just that lazy. lol
finally catching up to gintama! 20+ more eps to go =.=
catching akane-iro ni somaru saka (the hill that is dyed red (rose madder to be precise) )
which i dropped previously due to the fact that its a typical bishoujo anime..
but i heard the sis fell in love with the bro..now that's interesting. ^^
got a few anime violin scores from online! =D
true tear's op1: Reflectia
Naruto OP3:Blue Bird
Haruhi ED1: Hare Hare Yukai
Haruhi OP1:Bouken Deshou Deshou
Code Geass r2 OP1: O2
Code Geass r2 ED1: Shiawase Neiro
Code Geass OP1: Colors
Vampire Knight ED1:Still Doll
Bleach OP4: D-techno Life
Clannad OP1: Megumeru~2007 cuckool mix~
Gundam 00 OP2: Ash Like Snow
Gundam 00 ED2: Friends
Rental Magica ED1: Aruitekou
Claymore OP1: Raison D'etre
wooo hope i can master em all LOL
currently got blue bird and half of reflectia done..gotta work on transition notes..
Soul eater's new ending is like the best song i heard from SE since resonance..
and both of the songs are sung by TM.Revolution! =D
even tho one is a cover band formed by him and the other is the person himself..
despite this, i am probably dropping soul eater for the 3rd time since i started..
cos its freaking draggy and boring.
moka is weak as hell -.-
OKITA IS TOTALLY COOL in the shinsengumi discord arc! XD
shinsengumi is not just a pack of losers after all =D
yamazaki returning to life was lulz too hahaha
watching gintama episodes raw has got to be one of the harder tasks >.>
other than the dear ny maths papers of course.
going to try Soul of the Ultimate Nation jp version..cos the tw version needed my id number as a taiwanese..which i obviously dont have. =.=
the download is 1.8gb wtf.
~_~
at least the gameplay looks good.
lots of ppl call this the next big thing in asia o.O
looks cool for me..
now to wait for the darn download o~(>.<)~o
My brain has severely degenerated and is no longer capable of doing calculations..
thus i am ignoring the maths paper.
until the wretched thing known as time starts pushing me to the edge.
it always ends up like this huh. -.-
school is starting soon...
i wonder if i'll ever find another otaku like me. o.O
maria holic OP1.
shaft is doing a great job as usual for OPs..
maid guitars ftw..i want one too =O
kinda a lag post but i was busy watching gintama!
now using chinese subs cos the english ones are lagging by almost a year's worth of eps (*o*)
i didnt go get my results again cos i am lazy.... =.=
found a hare hare yukai by kururugi suzaku.. LOL
code geass hero to pop idol!?!? XD
yay..and i overslept for o lvl's HCL!
=.=
gotta go back school collect cert tmr...
knew i shouldnt rely on the snooze function on my phone rawr
>.<
hope i get b3 and better!
i dun wanna take h1 chinese T_T
well well..if its not Prince of Tennis.
well..its not.
its the Idiot of Badminton from Gintama! XD
The Neo Armstrong Cyclone Jet Armstrong Cannon Returns! LOL
plagiarized by the evil organisation >.>
"we found an organization that wants the battery."
"whats its name?"
"its Evil Organisation."
"what evil organisation?"
"its an evil organisation with the name Evil Organisation."
GG.
Gundam 00 14 + the new OP! =D
still in process of getting it..but OP2 's up on youtube!
Louise Harlevy
Anew Returner
Marina Ismail
Feldt
fanservice ftw?
where is sumeragi? =/
these 4 are enough though.. they are all real pretty xD
basically it means the "random newcomer" to the ship's crew is going to be one of the main heroines i guess~
being a gundam fanboy myself i love the new OP for gundam 00!
i guess the first OP was more of harder impact while this is more emotional~
sadly this also means that the show is going to end in 2+ months time =/
Mizuki Nana's new single's radio rip is out! and running on my blog lol
ignore the radio comments at the back =p
i
her new single's cover! =D
hirano aya and mizuki nana from the production of white album!
Moka Ayakashi x Haruhi Suzumiya/Konata!?!
makes me wanna watch white album more!
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And thus, the last week of holidays arrive.
gintama never fails to amuse me. rofl
The Hikkikomori
was late for violin lessons again
~(T_T)~
JLPT IS GETTING THE NERF-STICK WOO
well instead of 4 levels there will now be 5 levels to ensure transition between 2 and 3 is smoother..
cos apparently the current level 2 pwns all those who thought they owned 3(like me) and can own 2 as well.
the power level is..7000..8000...ITS OVER 9000 OF DIFFERENCE!!!!!!!
cant wait for o levels to come back to see how much deep shit i am in..
as well as jlpt 3 =D
i want to see if my "its easy" attitude will screw me upside down again.. -.-
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Screencap of the day: NICE BOAT FROM LINEBARRELS OF IRON ep 14!!
gonzo .. dont plagiarize school days!! AND ITS TOTALLY LINK-LESS! <~ x ~>
Gintama ep 38!
snow festival..and thats what gin-chan can make =.=
maybe it really is just a cannon..
and i am just thinking dirty..
but ...
KORE WA OCHINCHIN JA NAI NO?
Gintama makes me laugh like no show ever made me laugh before..
the 2nd best would have to be lucky star..
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Quote of the episode (35)
At the cat-girl who stole his wallet and scammed Shinpachi..
"its really okay..i won't hold anything against you..it was short..but it really made me feel like i had a real girlfriend."
*girl blushes*
"and i have one last thing to tell you..."
*girl stares*
"ITS ALL A LIE YOU DUMBASS! *beats her up*"
4G class gathering yesterday!
take away the prcs..and we have almost half of our class (10 ppl) that came!
=D
sang karaoke at topone for 7 hours xD
then leonard and daoyi ran off
and lytien / girvan / basil came to eat dinner with us and play CS lol
i got owned o.O
too long nvr play le >.<
camping ftw! q(^.^)p
LOL
then we fooled around in the arcade for a while playing shoot the hoops lol
and i wasted money on the ufo catchers >.<
guess that time was just a fluke haha
we should really have more of such gatherings ww
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Mangas that i have set my eyes on:
Kuro Kami
Gantz
Yuutai Nova
Kaichou wa Maid-sama!
Kuroshitsuji
Ga-rei
Maria+Holic
Asu no Yoichi!
Zombie Loan
Mahou Tsukai Kurohime
Kannagi
anyone got any school life comedy / action shounen /seinen manga to recommend? =)
set to burn a hole in my wallet...lol
The Hikkikomori
went to pasir ris to pass eclipse to peixian ytd..
イクリプズをペイシアンに貸してくれる為にパシルリズに行った。
recently i keep meeting friends when i go out o.O
最近外に行け時に、お知り合いをいつも会って。
saw zongxian and band ppl (i assume) there as well x.x
ゾンシアンたちを会った。
偶然だな! 前月から今まで。常にお知り合いを見た。
damn qiao sia..every single time i went out from last month til now.. i met ppl i know o.O
友達いっぱいですね。ww
large social circle ftw. LOL
俺の勝ち!
victory for me. q(^.^)P
>.>
って結うか、月姫を買ったとき、「禁じられた」とわけで、捕られちゃった。
weird that when i tried to buy tsukihime i got caught for the 18+ thingy..
でも、黒神を克ったころ、成功しました!
but apparently when i bought kurokami i didnt get caught yay!
=D
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俺の不満を覆われる、
Repressing my discontent,
絶望の鳴く、
my cries of despair,
監禁した。
they are imprisoned,
この気持ち、
these feelings,
心の中に隠れたんだ。
locked up in my heart,
魂の奥に宿る。
kept in the essence of my soul,
そして、泪を降るころに、
and with tears dropping,
まだ“大丈夫”と言って。
i still manage to say "it's okay =D"
namida no mukou by Stereo Pony! q(^.^)p
i like. xD
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a field of sadness,
a landscape of sorrow.
a scenery of death,
a vision of forlorn gloom.
i alone,
stand in this desecrated land.
this land called life.
The hikkikomori goes out for a movie.
Bedtime Stories! REDUX.
yes ur eyes are not deceiving you =)
i watched bedtime stories the 2nd time with ai leng! xD
and she killed my wallet rawr. :<
gotta go cut my now-super-long hair..as well as hand in my ipschool scholarship form thingy to the office..
as well as hunt for hayate no gotoku 17!
maybe i gotta get 12 onwards too..since thats probably where the anime stopped.
gonna go try kino..
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Winter 2009 is a dry season =/
despite that, a few nice animes / dramas i want to catch is:
..
..
(okay u know i'll watch almost all the animes)
White Album!
based on the eroge from 1998...(yea kinda long)...is an anime adaptation finally!
The main character have a relationship with yuki, a rising idol, which leads to strained relationships between them. He slowly drifts away from her and towards Lina, one of the top idols in the showbiz..but how it acts out is still unknown..
but.. Aya Hirano(Konata, Haruhi. Ayu) and Mizuki Nana(Moka from rosario+vampire) are the 2 VAs for the 2 idols! this could turn out interesting =D
Kurokami: The Black God
3 deaths in 1 episode..i thirst for more.. lol.
in this world, there are doppeliners, 2 other copies of ourselves..the day 2 of us meet..both will perish and our existence will be carried on by the 3rd, or the origin.
There is a group of people who serve to maintain this balance..but when they turn against this balance..the world is at stake.
sunrise animation...weird for me..but its quite okay..and kuro reminds me of Shana xD
Maria+Holic
Yuri at first glance...until you look deeper..
SHAFT + yuri + traps = must-watch. XD
The main girl (or er..guy) is Mariya, a perfect student with great results and good conduct, with beautiful features..however she/he hides a great secret..
she's a guy who is cross-dressing.
nice.
there's more shows..but i feel real sleepy again..fatigue kickin' in.
so i'll hit the sack soon.
or so i guess.
its..its..OVER 9000!!!!!
gonna go sign up for kinokuniya membership these few days..
then i am gonna start collecting manga! =D
konata has a huge influence on me x.x
hopefully my results dont fail like hers lol
reading online just feels weird..anyway.
off to read The Sigh of Haruhi Suzumiya~
omg edusave only 250dollars =O
apparently the school did not register my new address with them..
so for the past 3 years they sent the letter to my old house..
thus i missed 3 years of money =/
(=.=")
damn it my wow subscription totally expired =X
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I must have totally burned out myself....
falling asleep in the afternoon more and more often (!_!)
hope this eccentric biocycle stops on jan 19th..
or i have a feeling i might need to do a lot of cip in school to redeem my demerit points -.-
Just finished watching Lucky Star =O
so sad..i want more lucky star! らきすたが大好き!=D
今。。アズマンガダイオウを見る!
まだまだたくさんアニメがある! 全て見てやる!
freaking tired today. q(>.<)p
duno why.. just damn tired..
perhaps its because i slept at 4.30 and woke up at 8 (o.O)
my sleeping habits are totally like konata (>o<)
went to buy manga at comics connection...
wanted to buy tsukihime but its freaking 18+ wtf
almost got past..then the old uncle took over and asked for my age..zzzz
settled for a haruhi suzumiya light novel and a hayate no gotoku manga instead >.<
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2 weeks left to JC.
to the end of this dream (T^T)
Rotting at home everyday anyway..so it may not exactly be a bad thing.
生徒会に入れる!
好い成績は手に入れ手なきゃ!
東京大学へ行く!
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Friends. are they going to be forever by my side?
Or are they merely passing spectres?
I want to believe.