Embraced by death.

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

public speaking workshop sucks.

waste my time and cause me to throw away my ndp leadership training... this is fucked up.

2 days before holidays..and i just lost my holiday mood =.=

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twisted rainbows,

rotting flowers,

dying birds,

withering grass,

the earth desecrated,

the skies forlorn and full of gloom,

this is my Eden,

my paradise,

my land of joy,

my Nirvana.

11:10 PM

Sunday, May 24, 2009

HARUHI SECOND SEASON IS HERE..(well technically its a rerun of the first + new episodes)

ALL HAIL OUR GODDESS HARUHI'S RETURN.

K-ON SHALL FALL LOL.

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went to dance night =D

quite cool lah the hiphop and break =D

i cant appreciate cdance x.x

why 4g outing became 5man outing..i don't know.

also happening was the nya(national youth assembly) interview..

wa tio rjc guy in my interview group..

hopefully i stand a chance =X

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Painfully,

collapsing to the ground,

tears dropping,

emotions overflowing.

i lost sight,

lost the will to live.

I cannot love,

I cannot trust,

I cannot be a human.

Weakly,

trying to grab on

grab on to that last shadow,

heart aching,

face contorting,

i want to love,

i want to trust,

but the world have abandoned me.

12:20 AM

Friday, May 22, 2009

I TOTALLY <3 SCANDAL :D

their style is so cool! and they are hot =3

along with AKB48 and stereopony they are my top 3 groups now <3

wow i realised by passing my ki test i had received 72th percentile LOL

thats even more hardcore than maths =.=

10:55 PM

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

WOOHOO got into MOE's Taiwan Exchange Programme :D

so now.. hosting taiwan ppl in july! :D

then after that end of year get to go japan and taiwan =DDDD

MY EAST ASIA TOUR OH YEA OH YEA XD

14-22 Nov -> JAPAN! :D

28Nov to mid-Dec -> TAIWAN! :D

now to decide what stuffs i would like to buy there.. heh

on a sadder note,

i got 16/40 for maths =(

S LEH S LEH WTH WTH T_T

careless rawr rawr rawrrrrrrrrr

CSM TOMORO TIME TO SLACK :D

8:50 PM

Sunday, May 17, 2009

Maths x Econs test tmr = die.

even a maths loser like me can fathom this equation. D=

and i am kinda unimpressed by how some teachers assume that all arts students want to fail maths. o.O

i want to own too you know! and ur comments arent helping much. =(

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of course, there's the much anticipated KI LIT REVIEW X GPP = DIE AGAIN equation. =/

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frolicking in the land of Eden,

in the land of paradise,

Do i expect to find happiness?

Do i seek joy and fulfillment?

What i seek, is that apple,

that incessant bit of human thirst,

that desire,

that greed,

that Original Sin.

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Climbing through the skies,

cutting through the clouds,

i seek the Seventh Heaven,

to confront the angels,

to see their palace desecrated,

to take the seat of God.

9:56 PM

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

To-do List:
Mr Quek's "I am Sorry for not listening to your instructions" essay
Econs Tutorial (old)
Econs Tutorial (new)
Maths Tutorial (4b/5a)
Mug Econs
Mug Maths
Do KI Lit Review
Mug History
do history essay outline

planning to do in these few days : no.

=.=

so much work.

so little resolve.

so much commitment.

i am so full of bullshit.

11:07 PM

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Wedding dinners are great revelations on how nice love can get.

every time i watch couples do all the stuff they do at wedding dinners,

it makes me wonder whether they can still do that 20 years down the road,

braving all the problems of life like money, work and children.

i wonder if they would uphold the vow they make, til death shall we part.

i wonder how many people out there have already broken this vow,

and how our dear god will deal with them.
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Maybe i am detached from the world,

or maybe i am just in a delusion that i am.

12:13 AM

Sunday, May 10, 2009

ずっと、追いかけた。
追いかけても、前に進めない、友人たちから措いた。
奔って、奔って。
奔っても、届けないけど。
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so many things to do,
so little time.
boohoo. =(

operation 4g gathering is underway :D

went for jts for A10! :D

so funny the seniors x)

we went to sakae sushi :D

our table ate 50 plates WAHAHA

also, flea-ker of hope was like totally such a girls' thing x.x

all the stuff they sell are girls stuff =.=

all the guys were like "wth man why all girls stuff!" xD

we sold candy floss :)

so fun to make candy floss! XD

i think i can be less emo..or not?

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Most Found Their Heaven,
Some stayed on Earth.
Yet i am damned,
to wander Hell forever.

Most found their love,
some remained stoic,
yet i am cursed,
to be loveless for eternity.

Most have seen the light,
Some stayed in the gray region,
yet i am forced,
to perpetually see nothing but black.

Maybe i am just selfish,
egocentric, and self-centred,

Maybe i am jealous,
full of hatred and envy,

Or maybe,
i have not yet learned to love,
to accept, to change my views,
to understand, to take that first step,

to say "i love you."

11:00 PM

Saturday, May 2, 2009

Siao liao..

my personal timetable getting so screwed..

thing i overachieved liao D=

limit break!

>.<

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maybe i should slow down and enjoy life.

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Overflowing despair and agony,

Overwhelming sadness and sorrow,

Floods the fields of my heart,

Drowns the ghosts of my past.

Nothing remains,

Nothing survives,

but death and decay,

darkness and mourning,

12:55 PM