Death is the only way out.
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
i have 2 powerpoints to do..
and i feeling like sleeping right now D=
damn..
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took my first history test this year..
gonna get screwed probably. D=
so much stuff to cope with nowadays..
my hair will be all white by end of this year naturally lol
getting so exhausted nowadays..feels like my soul is being drained out. bleh.
just bought a new stephen kings book xD
suddenly feel like getting edgar allen poe's books and h.p. lovecraft's books as well.
horror just makes me feel so good.
1408 (the novel) was kinda nice, but it was too short =(
well..it was only 70 odd (very odd) minutes that dear mike eslin spent in room 1408..can't drag that long even if he wanted to xD
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arts is so so so slack.
i get 2 hours breaks on average evryday :D
9:52 PM
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
finally get to change class and finally got back to my dear history lessons =D
SEA history and cold war history now..
obviously cold war's gonna be the bitch like it was last year. =(
but who cares.
history's 1000x more fun than say, chemistry. :D
sorry s70 peeps.
science just isn't my thing..don't intend to sleep through the last 2 years of my school days =X
i shall live it like it was the last day everyday.
and make it fun and full of joy.
even if the whole world fail me..
i shall not fail myself.
10:27 PM
Monday, April 20, 2009
fuck this world.
"We hope you can contribute to the school in a positive light."
i tried.
i apply for something else, and guess what fucking message i get.
"we hope you can contribute to the community in your own special way."
FUCK YOU.
I TRIED EVERY SINGLE WAY TO TRY TO SERVE THE SCHOOL AND WHAT THE FUCK DO I GET.
I GET THIS BULLSHIT.
AND U EXPECT ME TO TRY HARDER?
Even God has his limits.
much less me.
Have u ever tried failing in every single endeavor for a month or so,
and getting this bloody message saying "we hope you succeed in your future endeavors" ?
Fucking hypocrisy.
I AM BLOODY REACHING LIMIT BREAK.
STOP FUCKING SCREWING WITH ME.
GOD DAMN YOU ALL.
how much more do you want to screw with my life?
HOW MUCH MORE.
i am not the one that fails.
its this world that failed.
8:24 PM
Saturday, April 18, 2009
DBSK Share the World! :D
woke up at 6+ to go help zhikai with his project.. ended up 2hours late lol =.=
at least everything turned out well...went door to door to promote the anti-litter message o.O
"come on come on everybody let's share the good times."
dbsk songs so nice :D
but the mv kinda a letdown lol.
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so many weird people in this world that need to get a life -.-
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and i missed violin lessons 5 times in a row..busy saturdays ftl.
11:01 PM
Thursday, April 16, 2009
i don't know what to make out of my current mental state.
unstable, close to insanity?
emo?
i dunno.
and my decision making skills definitely have not increased since a year ago.
i am still undecisive, and still can't tell whos the one i like.
why can't things remain ambiguous forever?
because the one i like will never like someone so escapist as i.
meanwhile, i think my life as a good student is already on the rocks.
please. no more late waking ups. =/
today woke up at 9am LOL
=.=
11:28 PM
Saturday, April 11, 2009
the past 10 days or so was horror to me.
i have been in a nervous rack, screwed up all my work, decided on something, and now hope that everything can go fine.
i lost sight of what i aimed for, and at that last moment, lost everything i worked so hard for.
i became too complacent, and at that last moment, got into a mental breakdown.
i got the worst questions, and at that last moment, no answers.
i got the worst luck, and at that last moment, it came back to haunt me.
i have failed.
and i will NOT fail in my life again.
8:24 PM
The deceased
Eugene Chua
STILL 16. (:
Hwa Chong Institution (College)
09A10
Emo.
Indecisive bastard.
Gets jealous easily.
Social Darwinist.
Thinks too much.
Failed Violinist.
Kendo beginner
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My Political Views
I am a left moderate social libertarian
Left: 3.67, Libertarian: 2.25

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Deathwishes
That Life Wasn't This Bad.
That I have great close friends.
That I will get great results
That I can be happy (if ever).
That I can go to Japan and survive.
That I can get into the UN next time.
That i can meet a girl of my dreams who's not actually attached and likes me. (tough dream huh.)